Thursday, October 1, 2015

Chloe's Newborn Photos

I always liked the saying "comparison is the thief of joy." Some moms look like they have it all together. They wear pretty clothes, do fun things with their kids, and post flawless photos on social media. We just got our hands on Chloe's beautiful newborn photos (see all of them here). And the photos are gorgeous, but they are misleading. I didn't have it together the day the photos were taken - at all. Our house was a disaster zone as we were preparing to move the next day. I was on the verge of a total meltdown. And today I am again breaking down.

So far today we've (I've) had maybe 4 hours of sleep, we kicked the morning off with a blow out which required a bath, followed by two rounds of hiccups, dogs growled and interrupted her nap (just as I had laid my own head down for MY nap), house is a mess, laundry piled up, all my nursing bras are dirty...and so on.

Just having a rough day here. I was starting to feel like we had made progress, started a little routine, and it seemed like night time/sleep was improving. Today feels like all progress is out the window and all the work I've done the last 5 weeks was ineffective.

My pregnancy was so easy and the delivery is over in the blink of an eye. Actually caring for your child - whew - it's no joke. I feel so burnt out today - like I have nothing to give Chloe and it makes me sad. I feel like I'm running on fumes, and those fumes are actually body odor because I couldn't even get a shower in before bed last night.

I have a new respect for all the exhausted moms out there - wearing pajamas and yoga pants all day, with messy hair and smudged mascara from yesterday. Being a mom is hard work! Praying for God's help today. I especially need it.

1 comment:

  1. Bless your heart! The first year is *rough*, I will say! Having gone through it once before, I can guarantee you that there is a "light at the end of the tunnel". I would say that by the first birthday, when their little personalities really come out, that's a whole new chapter of fun because they're not as helpless and dependent on you 24/7! But we're right there with you with daughter #2! In the thick of the crying, the endless cycle of feedings and changings... sometimes it seems like we can't catch a break (or a shower)! But rest assured it DOES get better, and easier, and a routine will develop! And then she'll be a wonderful part of your family instead of what can at times seem like a never-ending chore (no offense to our babies, this is when they need their moms the most)! The best thing you can do for yourself is to lean on others and ask for help when you really need it, step away when you need a breather, and don't let yourself feel too overwhelmed by the weight of parenthood. :-)